When “I Have to Do Everything” Wears You Down: Am I Really the One Breathing?
Some days feel heavy when I keep telling myself that I have to do well, take responsibility, and see everything through . When that voice runs all day, the exhaustion can feel close to burnout. It often comes less from the work itself than from the weight the mind carries while doing it. This thought is so familiar that we rarely notice it is a thought at all. But is the "I" we take for granted, the "I" who does everything, actually real? Photo by the author A Question That Came Up During Sitting Meditation: Am I Really the One Breathing? A few days ago, I did a sitting meditation, watching my breath. At first, I deliberately placed my attention on the air moving in and out at the tip of my nose. Then I noticed my breathing growing quieter and quieter. And then, for one very brief moment, the breath seemed to be breathing itself. I was startled. It was as if I wasn’t making the breath happen. I kept watching the in-breath and out-breath until the session ended. ...